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JOURNEY INTO INTIMACY
Testimony by Jerry Lee
I am very aware of the grace of God on my life and how He is transforming me. If I had to put a time where I transitioned, perhaps it would have been the time I went to Bethel in Redding where I had a real sense of how much God loved me. It was not a dramatic encounter where I fell down or shook, but it was His sweet presence that had me crying and laughing at the same time. A greater revelation of His love propelled me on a journey of wanting intimacy with Him. God started to reveal to me the value He placed on me when He sent Jesus to the cross, not just to save me from my sins but to restore to me a relationship that I can have like Adam had before he fell.
Another area of falling short in my life was love. I did not love myself nor people the way that Jesus loved. Realizing that I needed to receive His love in order to love ( I can’t love my neighbor as myself, if I do not love myself), I started to respond to His pursuit of me by reading more about His kingdom and going through some teaching about how to be intimate with Father God. I realize now that I have, rightly or wrongly, listened to a lot of wrong teaching in my life. One of those is that when I come to Jesus, He will give me a brand new life. No. He didn’t do a remake of my old life. He gives me an exchanged life. I surrendered my old life and it has died and is buried. Gal 2:20 says “I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. The gospel of the kingdom is not about me, it is about Him.
I just didn’t say a prayer to get into Heaven. I don’t come to Him to help me get a job, to have enough finances, or to have a good marriage, etc. I come to Him on the basis of dying to self so that Christ can live in me. The old man is dead, and the new man is alive. I am not sin conscious, but righteous conscious. He has redeemed me just have a free bus ride to heaven, but to co-labor with Him to extend the Kingdom of God. It takes an understanding of who we are in Him and the destiny that He places on our lives. So to know Him is a must and a privilege. We are not to just know about Him, but to know Him intimately. Jesus said “And this is eternal life that they may know You the only true God and Jesus Christ whom You have sent” (John 17:3). Jesus was the Word made flesh. He calls us to follow Him. So becoming like Him and following Him requires us to have intimacy with our Father like Jesus had. We have to flesh out the Words of life from scripture.
Unless we have intimacy with Him, we will start to live under law and not grace, become religious, but not have life. We will have knowledge which puffs up, but no power. We will read scripture to have Bible knowledge and to defend our doctrines, but we will not know Him. I am learning to live free from me. I can be who He has created me to be, not under the pressure to perform to please Him or anyone else. God calls us to have a relationship with Him, His original plan when He created Adam. I feel that I am blessed to be in a different place in my life where I am enjoying this relationship He has always wanted me to have and to experience. For many years, because I did not know who I was and was self-conscious and did not enter into sonship, I failed to grasp the importance of communion with God from the heart and not just from my head. I now allow my heart to respond before my head understands everything. Living in intimacy allows the grace of God to override law. I can now be comfortable with who I am and “be” rather than “do”, a Mary instead of a Martha. I find myself more surrendered to let Him potter me because I know He loves me. As we live a life “from” the cross instead of “to the cross”, His love and power enables us to step into the destiny that He has for each one of us. We will live out of love and not out of fear.
The law which has been done away with and the old nature which has been crucified no longer have a voice and we can begin to live in our new nature complete in Christ. Where we have had fears under the law and under the old covenant we can now live under grace and the new covenant. Under the old covenant we touch a leper, and we become unclean, under the new covenant we touch a leper, the leper becomes clean. My desire is to see the supernatural lifestyle become the norm and that comes from knowing our rights and privileges as sons and daughters of the God who rules over all. So intimacy with Him is beginning to transform my life where my understanding of who God is and not being fashioned by life circumstances and issues but by the Truth of His Word and by my time spent in His presence.
January 2013
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Wayne Mackay’s Poetic Response
TAKING BIGGER BITES AND BIGGER STEPS
In our quest to get closer to God, our creator
We need to search inside our hearts, exposing our true nature
We can’t sit around being complacent, and sighing, “Oh well”
Because then we might get tricked, ending up on the wrong side of hell
Can’t we see the need to turn up our desire, and dial up the wonder
To speak to Him face-to-face, and quench our spiritual hunger
Jesus is the Bread of Life, the Way, the Truth, and the Light
The only way to feed on Him is to take a bigger bite
Another way to look at it, is to ponder the depth of our faith
Do our actions speak louder than the words that we sayeth?
Can we see the results of our small steps to push back the flood?
Do we really want to experience the power of Jesus’ blood?
I want to take bigger steps that fire up my boldness
For my love for others flows from the heart of Jesus
In my spirit I can see it, the power is getting stronger
I’m not standing in the boat, but walking in the water